I haven’t been blogging lately, but Goddess knows I’ve been writing. Conference papers, a Ph.D. dissertation in its early stages, marketing, and content for a new business website have all been occupying my writing lobe, keeping me far away from my deep, internal, home space. I have been an exile in the world of making money, expanding my Vitae, my reputation, my brand recognition, all so I can launch my business and help to ease some suffering. Suffering in exile in order to find people who want to find some way to ease their suffering. What a strange circle I have created.
Blogging gives me a chance to reflect, to stop, and think about something else, something not dollar driven. The world of commerce, commodity, digital marketing, and communication is exhausting. I have the soul of an artist, a creative and a thinker. I could sit on the beach, watch the water, think all day, and never be bored, for weeks. Then I might come up with an idea and I would feel the muses urge me to write it down. It speaks to the need of just being. Those quiet moments are few and far between for everyone these days.
The question many of us seem to be dealing with these days is, ” How many balls can I keep in the air before I drop one or the other?” Technology is fantastic, yet, as it speeds ahead we have to go faster and faster to keep up with what seems like daily changes to operating systems, upgrades to hardware, revisions of programs and new app developments. It exhausts me thinking about it. Politics isn’t helping either. Are we better off than we were 4 years ago? 8 years ago? 10 years ago? Was it better 20 years ago?
It doesn’t matter. All we have is now. Making the best of now. Making it better now, for everyone. Ease the suffering. Ease the suffering. It is my, “If you build it they will come” whisper. It’s in my ear constantly, it’s in the wind and the sighing of the sea.
So here I am, back home from the wilderness of commerce for a minute or two, going to ground, touching base with my Self. I’m tired, I’m a liberal, and I am frightened about so many things that are happening. From N. Korea and the Russian sandal to the environment, and global warming, to poverty, defunding of education, and healthcare… the list goes on and on.
I will keep fighting and working because there is no rest in giving up, not when there is still and always so much suffering. Ease the suffering. There it is again, revealing my privilege.